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I have a huge soft spot for all things little and in unexpected situations - this may be an insect in the wrong place at the wrong time and about to be stepped on to a plant that may be dying and just hanging on! I cannot help it, but my heart aches for these little living creatures whatever they may be.
I've saved dozens of little bugs that others around me jump and scream at. How is it their fault for being there? The wrong place at the wrong time is honestly what I think. The world is such a difficult and confusing place for these little guys - so I try to save them when I can. usually my rescue attempts go well, but sometimes they can be difficult.
When it comes to plants I usually try to spare myself the pain of seeing them in the clearance section on death row. I feel like some stores just get so many plants these days they don't know what to do with them! So they end up just getting neglected or being in too crowded of areas and not being bought during whatever that season is, so they need to get them out of the store to make room for whatever is "in season" next. This probably isn't the case everywhere, but I feel I've seen it enough where I live. So once in awhile I will go in these clearance sections and buy up a few, give them love and they live in most cases.
And finally in the past I used to volunteer at my local animal shelter. It was a nice experience overall but I ended up adopting two sickly cats. And they both lived somewhat short lives in the grand scheme of things, but I tried to give them the best lives I could. I adopted a dog years ago who was literally on death row for being too old and the dog shelter running out of room. He was to be put down in a few days for this reason. But he had a good 3 in a half years - to 4 years with me. I've adopted a few Walmart fish over the years and those even lived a somewhat more decent life.
Maybe it goes back to just my nature or something on a deeper level... but I cannot help but help those who I think may need me. It makes me feel useful and gives me purpose.

Purpose

Dec. 8th, 2023 06:50 pm
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Getting back on here after a few days offline I figured I would write a post about art and how I feel it can give us all who create it purpose. I know that introduction sentence may come off a bit mellow dramatic, but it feels right to me. So bring it on.

After being back online in the community of writing and sharing my comic as well as reading others, it has opened my mind up again to a new creative type in the world. We may go by all different titles... story tellers, creators, artists, authors... I feel there are many more. I feel we open up a part of ourselves to the world we decide to share our art and stories to.

For me there was a time in my early life when as a mid to late teenager I had few friends. The ones I did have were good to me and we had good memories I look back on. But there was a bigger part of my soul I opened up from time to time. And that was writing stories and starting to create comics. Alone I would sit in my room, or in whatever room in my parents house at the time and I would just write and draw. I was highly influenced by anime and manga and some American cartoons and comics, as well as the random graphic novel I would pick up. These would inspire me and I felt that someday maybe I could do what they have done. As I created these comics I felt connected to the characters, the world and the possibility that I could do whatever I wanted with it. It was a secretive and powerful feeling. And now as an older adult about 20 years later and I have been looking over and reading my old creations of Promised Memories I can feel who I was back then. Even now I have a pretty quite social circle and just like back then, these stories and comics are giving me a certain calm in this crazy, fast paced world we live in. If that makes sense and doesn't sound weird at all.

It was a safe place for me. And even now, I have a-lot to be grateful for and happy about - but I can still find myself being depressed from time to time and when I do, falling back into my stories and focusing on them has given me a feeling of purpose. I live alone, some days it is pleasant and other days it is sad. On those sad days I can turn my thoughts and energy to my comic, story, characters and word I created.

I don't want this post to be looked on with pity. But just to express myself and how I feel some days. I feel as creators we can all be sensitive and I feel at least one of you reading this may relate. The world feels like a harsh place at times. It gives me comfort to know I can hide in one of my stories, comics and world for awhile and forget about all that is around me.

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