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I go through some days where I feel more anxious than others. Some days I am more hopeful than others.
But one thing I want to STOP is the adds. Before I noticed political adds used to just be on regular TV but now they are on Youtube AND on the radio. This nice quite morning I wanted to get caught up on DW and enjoy my breakfast of sunny side eggs, toast and tea and on the radio there was an add about my state's senator Sherrod Brown. It lasted what felt like minutes and felt like it was never going to end. Saying untrue, rude and distasteful things... almost like a child wrote it. So I unplugged my radio and now I am listening to Pandora.
I'm tired of all the negativity and hate. Why not say something good about the candidate you are supporting? Why not give us new information on why you are supporting them? No... Okay, but don't just say fact less, terrible, angry and just nasty adds OVER and OVER and OVER. It's gotten ridiculous these past few weeks. Within two or three adds I see or hear now one is related to politics here in Ohio. It makes me want to just go pack up and live in the woods for the last of all of this.
Soon all of this will be over. I'm hoping for a good, positive and new outlook and a new candidate. Most of you know who I support, I don't feel the need to say it here. But my ears will be beyond happy when all of these stupid adds are done. Gosh, I HATE it. And that takes a-lot for me to say.
Rant done. Takes some deep breaths.
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https://youtu.be/OX3Z-P68Ipo?si=VjUpY1zvR4Rh3ezV

I have a good amount of Youtube channels I am subscribed to and I watch Youtube on a pretty regular basis. The last few weeks I have been going back through some of the channels I haven't watched in awhile and figured I would give this one channel - TDC - a look again. This one caught my eye and I think it is worth watching. Climate change has been a big issue and worry to me and I think it's of great importance but I also fear we lost very important time in the recent past. Let me know what you guys think!
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Tonight I ended up taking a three hour long nap.... and it really put me in a weird mental state. Not only did I wake up from a strange unpleasant realistic dream, but I must have completely missed hearing my one alarm to take my evening medication. I was only about 45 minutes late from when I normally take it, so it wasn't that big of a deal, but the idea that I didn't hear my one alarm is a new shock.

But with this post I feel I can share some personal details with you guys that I don't normally share these days with other people in my life because I don't want to go into it with them and I feel it would cause worry and I don't want to do that. My mom's health isn't doing well. She has had a number of stomach issues for many, many years now. And got admitted to the hospital Sunday. She's still there and they have been doing some tests on her, trying to figure out what's going on. Today she shared with me that they found out she has a valve that isn't working properly for her heart and that's a big concern to me. Her weight has gone down, today on the phone we talked twice and she sounded so sad when she said she isn't doing any better. She told me this afternoon that she can see new bones showing because she has lost more weight.

I think this is the main reason I slept for three hours this evening after eating a bowl of cereal and watching some youtube. No, I am sure that this is why I slept so long. Because I'm worried about my mom and it's hard doing anything else right now. I would set an alarm for a half an hour, wake up to it, change it for the next half an hour or an hour, wake up to it and just keep repeating this for three hours on my couch. This has happened before, but not three hours in a row.... I need to cut this nap habit off... do you guys have any suggestions? I know that is sort of a weird request. But right now it is after 11 and I normally should be in bed. But right now I am wide awake.
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Gosh, it took a-lot for me to get up and wake up from a nap! But words won't write themselves.

The month of April came and went in what felt like a blink of an eye! I felt like socially it was a-lot, working on sketching for a CF 30 day event, my comic, creating new characters for my comic, starting to get back into doing yard work again, going through stuff for my yard sale, keeping up with regular upkeep around my home... It all felt very rushed.

I did start on some new projects - like sewing up old jeans that just had one or two little holes in them. I don't see the point in throwing them out, so I wanted to repair them and keep them. It felt good the other afternoon with all my sewing materials out and sewing, listening to videos on youtube. Eventually I have other sewing projects I want to do like fixing old purses, lunch boxes, dresses, ect. Things that I can fix up and still use rather than throw out and have to buy again.

Drawing was a good improvement. I came up with a new cast for Promised Memories. They will be showing up in chapter 14. And drawing out 30 characters/mystical creatures for the hue islands in which my story takes place was good practice.
Either this weekend or next week I want to finally write that new chapter and add the new characters into it. I'd like to get back into doing painting again next month -lets see how that goes! :-p

If I had to take a guess I would say I'm about all ready for this yard sale. Besides maybe one last look through my kitchen and then just set up on the weekend of and to wait and see what gets bought - I am one step closer to decluttering. In all honestly I should have done this a few years ago! But it's never to late to make some lifestyle changes. It's amazing how tiring it is going through stuff and making that big decision if I want it or if I can part ways with it. Most days I'm mentally prepared to do this. But once in awhile I feel sort of down and it can be harder to decide, so I wait till I'm in a better place.

I've been reading a-lot more, like usual. I feel I turn on my T.V. less and less to watch it these days. Mostly just Youtube for some background noise while I do artwork or sewing. I'm proud of myself for reading so many books to decide if I want to keep them or get rid of them for the yard sale/donate. If I keep it up, I like to think I can read 2 - 3 books a month. For someone who used to binge-watch Netflix for years I think this is a healthier choice for me. All of these beautiful books around in my house have been here for years and they are all filled with amazing stories.

Pokemon Go has been still keeping me busy. Which is a fun break from social media on my phone. Not much to report with it, other than I still love it.

I'm still keeping up writing the reviews for CF comics and trying to post 1 to 2 other entries on here to practice my writing. I truly do love Dreamwidth. It's been a nice experience. I've made a few more new friends on here which is a plus. I'm trying to go through and check on my DW friends when I don't see entries from you all. And then I go through and try to comment on a newer one or an older one, just to learn more about them. It's sort of neat to go through and read one's older thoughts.

Sapphire is doing good! She seems to like feeding time the best and is somewhat aggressive when it comes to feeding! But I've read that is normal for Crowntail Betta fish. I'm currently trying to train her to eat from a spoon since some of her pellets fall and sink quickly.

Copying the family photos from my parent's albums are still an ongoing project but have been going well. I'd like to write about that once I am done. I feel like I'm halfway done with it. I just need to label them better.

So far I think that is a good update for last month. I' hoping to get better about taking these naps of mine. Today I took a very long one and just didn't want to wake up and do anything. I felt depressed. Not as bad as other days in the past, it's just sometimes writing up my thoughts and feelings can feel tiring. Thank you guys for reading these and keeping up!

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