The guilty pleasure of naps
May. 7th, 2024 10:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
a_natural_beautyTonight I ended up taking a three hour long nap.... and it really put me in a weird mental state. Not only did I wake up from a strange unpleasant realistic dream, but I must have completely missed hearing my one alarm to take my evening medication. I was only about 45 minutes late from when I normally take it, so it wasn't that big of a deal, but the idea that I didn't hear my one alarm is a new shock.
But with this post I feel I can share some personal details with you guys that I don't normally share these days with other people in my life because I don't want to go into it with them and I feel it would cause worry and I don't want to do that. My mom's health isn't doing well. She has had a number of stomach issues for many, many years now. And got admitted to the hospital Sunday. She's still there and they have been doing some tests on her, trying to figure out what's going on. Today she shared with me that they found out she has a valve that isn't working properly for her heart and that's a big concern to me. Her weight has gone down, today on the phone we talked twice and she sounded so sad when she said she isn't doing any better. She told me this afternoon that she can see new bones showing because she has lost more weight.
I think this is the main reason I slept for three hours this evening after eating a bowl of cereal and watching some youtube. No, I am sure that this is why I slept so long. Because I'm worried about my mom and it's hard doing anything else right now. I would set an alarm for a half an hour, wake up to it, change it for the next half an hour or an hour, wake up to it and just keep repeating this for three hours on my couch. This has happened before, but not three hours in a row.... I need to cut this nap habit off... do you guys have any suggestions? I know that is sort of a weird request. But right now it is after 11 and I normally should be in bed. But right now I am wide awake.
But with this post I feel I can share some personal details with you guys that I don't normally share these days with other people in my life because I don't want to go into it with them and I feel it would cause worry and I don't want to do that. My mom's health isn't doing well. She has had a number of stomach issues for many, many years now. And got admitted to the hospital Sunday. She's still there and they have been doing some tests on her, trying to figure out what's going on. Today she shared with me that they found out she has a valve that isn't working properly for her heart and that's a big concern to me. Her weight has gone down, today on the phone we talked twice and she sounded so sad when she said she isn't doing any better. She told me this afternoon that she can see new bones showing because she has lost more weight.
I think this is the main reason I slept for three hours this evening after eating a bowl of cereal and watching some youtube. No, I am sure that this is why I slept so long. Because I'm worried about my mom and it's hard doing anything else right now. I would set an alarm for a half an hour, wake up to it, change it for the next half an hour or an hour, wake up to it and just keep repeating this for three hours on my couch. This has happened before, but not three hours in a row.... I need to cut this nap habit off... do you guys have any suggestions? I know that is sort of a weird request. But right now it is after 11 and I normally should be in bed. But right now I am wide awake.
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