Sep. 30th, 2024

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This morning after I did some cleaning around my house and the what feels like never ending organizing of my stamps (:-p) I laid down to read some new manga volumes.
Nana: Volume 4
Fruits Basket - Special edition: Volume 6
Beastars: Volume 15

And it was pretty refreshing. I haven't read 'Fruits Basket' or 'Beastars' in quite a few months. I love how different these series are all to each other. From the worlds, to the art, to the story, to the characters to the plots. I also have some other manga series I plan on rereading and writing about in the future. My love of manga has been with me since I was a teen and first got a volume of shonen jump back when I was a teenager at a girl scout sleep over at a mall an hour away. That was when I first learned of some favorites that still stay with me today, my favorite series being 'One Piece". Then I found some other manga series while in Tennessee at a used book store while on vacation with my family soon after. A volume of 'Sailor Moon' and a volume of 'Marmalade Boy'. My interest just grew more and more over the years.

I feel like there is a-lot more to talk about, but I thought I'd just those who are interested in my current manga interests know what I'm digging into currently.
I do have a slight anxiety of finishing up buying these three series so I can have the complete series. But I worry about space and already having so many books. This feels like a more common issue that others struggle with, but I am unsure.
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I'm childless and happy that way.

For the majority of my life I never felt the want or need to have children or to become a mom. There was two times where I thought for a short amount of time I might want to be a mother and have a family - the one being where I was in my early 20's and lived out on my own and with my boyfriend at the time and really was getting into that whole domestic thing - even through ironically he was never home. Which that plus some other part of our relationship lead to us ending things and me buying my home. It's even more ironic that now he is happily married with a child when that was the future I wanted with him but he didn't want with me. Eh, these things are what lead us to different and better paths eventually. It's funny how life turns out.
And the second time I was out of my control with my hormones. If I ever feel comfortable to write about it I will share it in a private post to those of you I feel comfortable with knowing that part of my life... But to put it simply - it was a lonely and difficult time for me full of a roller coaster of emotions. In my brain I didn't want a baby, but my physical body wanted it. I think this was the worst agony I've ever personally gone through.

I do give so much respect to all of the moms out there - to me parenting and raising a little one is one of the most intense things one could possibly go through. I do get there are many rewards and feelings of happiness, too. It's just never felt like a way I want my destiny & future to go.
I'm sure most of you who have known me for a bit of time know this already, but I felt like this was an okay topic to write about. I don't know if I need to go into this any further and that's okay, too.

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