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Last night when I got home from my drive from my boyfriend's (about an hour and 10 minutes give or take) I enjoyed using my new GPS feature where I can call him from that. As we talked and I was home getting my stuff into my house he told me he had bad news. Never did I think he was going to tell me what he did. That a fellow friend of ours took his own life over the weekend. News broke out on comic fury and discord, but I pay little mind to that somedays. I learned that it was someone I considered a dear friend named Joshua.
I think I first officially met him was in The New Room Of Scrutiny, which is a fun forum that your characters are in a room and answer random questions. He actually drew my one character Ruby! Then I joined in with his very active forum on Comic Fury "Draw your characters doing stuff: Crystal edition". I joined and added in adult characters of mine to do the different prompts. Each week it would be something different and creative. Somewhere along the way I either started reading his comic Minimal or we started talking on discord. Both happened and I enjoyed it all. I love his story, characters, art and plot. There was such a huge fan base for his works and it is no wonder why. We sent a few messages back and fourth sometimes and he drew Princess Fay for a fan art piece, I need to find that and share it. Eventually he started reading my comic and supporting it full force, which I couldn't be more honored and happy about.
Between last night and today when I was on discord and CF I saw probably at least a hundred positive comments about him. At least. He effected so many lives, all in good ways. Supportive, funny, kind, helpful and open minded are just a few words I would use to describe him. But the one above all that I have mentioned to others is inspiring. He had some very close friends, people who I think they talked every day. I know those people are hurting the most, but it's others who are also hurting like myself. I wish I would have gotten to know him better, I wish I would have known. One thing I mentioned to Myk was that I had no idea he was ever suffering. He always seemed so positive and happy. And that's what is scary most of all. He was truly a beautiful person and things won't be the same on CF.
Also a little fun side fact about Joshua was that he actually put all the information I have been sharing in The new room of scrutiny and with reading my comic, he predicted how things will happen next. Which blew my mind, I wasn't sure anyone was paying that much attention, but he was. He sent me a message telling me how he felt things were going to go and it was pretty much 100% right.
I hope you all take care as you read this. Know that I am always here to talk to, no matter what. I have lost two other friends fresh out of highschool and now this is the third I have lost. I don't want any of you to ever feel alone. I do from time to time and it's not a good feeling. But we have each other. I know I have some of you who I can talk to and I hope the same goes for me. Even if it is just a shoulder to lean on when you are having a difficult day, or something more drastic is going down in your life. I don't want you to feel alone. I love all of you on some level and care. I hope Joshua knew this in his final moments and I hope he didn't suffer. May his memory live on and may people still enjoy his comics, characters, art and guidance.
I think I first officially met him was in The New Room Of Scrutiny, which is a fun forum that your characters are in a room and answer random questions. He actually drew my one character Ruby! Then I joined in with his very active forum on Comic Fury "Draw your characters doing stuff: Crystal edition". I joined and added in adult characters of mine to do the different prompts. Each week it would be something different and creative. Somewhere along the way I either started reading his comic Minimal or we started talking on discord. Both happened and I enjoyed it all. I love his story, characters, art and plot. There was such a huge fan base for his works and it is no wonder why. We sent a few messages back and fourth sometimes and he drew Princess Fay for a fan art piece, I need to find that and share it. Eventually he started reading my comic and supporting it full force, which I couldn't be more honored and happy about.
Between last night and today when I was on discord and CF I saw probably at least a hundred positive comments about him. At least. He effected so many lives, all in good ways. Supportive, funny, kind, helpful and open minded are just a few words I would use to describe him. But the one above all that I have mentioned to others is inspiring. He had some very close friends, people who I think they talked every day. I know those people are hurting the most, but it's others who are also hurting like myself. I wish I would have gotten to know him better, I wish I would have known. One thing I mentioned to Myk was that I had no idea he was ever suffering. He always seemed so positive and happy. And that's what is scary most of all. He was truly a beautiful person and things won't be the same on CF.
Also a little fun side fact about Joshua was that he actually put all the information I have been sharing in The new room of scrutiny and with reading my comic, he predicted how things will happen next. Which blew my mind, I wasn't sure anyone was paying that much attention, but he was. He sent me a message telling me how he felt things were going to go and it was pretty much 100% right.
I hope you all take care as you read this. Know that I am always here to talk to, no matter what. I have lost two other friends fresh out of highschool and now this is the third I have lost. I don't want any of you to ever feel alone. I do from time to time and it's not a good feeling. But we have each other. I know I have some of you who I can talk to and I hope the same goes for me. Even if it is just a shoulder to lean on when you are having a difficult day, or something more drastic is going down in your life. I don't want you to feel alone. I love all of you on some level and care. I hope Joshua knew this in his final moments and I hope he didn't suffer. May his memory live on and may people still enjoy his comics, characters, art and guidance.
