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Body acceptance rant
Apr. 24th, 2024 05:36 amRecently in Pokemon Go there was an update where you have more options for your character's physical appearance. As I was going through and updating mine I was pleased to see the different body types they now offer. And some of the other games in recent years have this and I am happy to see it becoming more and more popular. We are not all a size 0 with a big bust, strong biceps, a tight behind... so it puts my mind at ease when I see such changes happening. Especially when you are younger and you are still learning to love and accept yourself (I believe this takes time for some of us more than others). So when you play as a character who you want to make to look like yourself - it's good to have a size to match!
When I was 17/18 and in my last few years of high school I had an eating disorder. Before this I was pretty chubby - I have the stretch marks to prove it. I was a pretty depressed teenager and made myself feel better by eating. I don't want to go into much detail because I don't want to blame anyone or shame them online, but regardless I started eating less and less. To the point where I went from 130 some pounds to 90 within a few months. It was terrible. I wanted to be skinny. And once I got skinny I just wanted to keep with it and make sure I stayed that size.
I don't think it was until after I graduated and started to become more of myself in my early 20's that I started to put the weight back on. That was a chapter in my life I am more open about today. I feel that a-lot of young people - and honestly anyone at any age - can go through. There is so much pressure to be skinny and to look a certain way. Maybe things are getting easier in the sense where there are more people in Hollywood with all sorts of body sizes, but sometimes I feel like this is still a never ending battle. Still at times I feel a bit insecure by my size, I feel like mentally it's something I will always struggle with. But my weight is at a good point for where I am.
How many of you guys can relate to this on some level? I feel like it's a bigger problem than society wants to talk about.
When I was 17/18 and in my last few years of high school I had an eating disorder. Before this I was pretty chubby - I have the stretch marks to prove it. I was a pretty depressed teenager and made myself feel better by eating. I don't want to go into much detail because I don't want to blame anyone or shame them online, but regardless I started eating less and less. To the point where I went from 130 some pounds to 90 within a few months. It was terrible. I wanted to be skinny. And once I got skinny I just wanted to keep with it and make sure I stayed that size.
I don't think it was until after I graduated and started to become more of myself in my early 20's that I started to put the weight back on. That was a chapter in my life I am more open about today. I feel that a-lot of young people - and honestly anyone at any age - can go through. There is so much pressure to be skinny and to look a certain way. Maybe things are getting easier in the sense where there are more people in Hollywood with all sorts of body sizes, but sometimes I feel like this is still a never ending battle. Still at times I feel a bit insecure by my size, I feel like mentally it's something I will always struggle with. But my weight is at a good point for where I am.
How many of you guys can relate to this on some level? I feel like it's a bigger problem than society wants to talk about.
