Last week was a weird week to say the least

[a_natural_beauty]

I guess I'll start with just the weird news and then go into the deeper stuff.

So earlier last week my parents got news of some free books they could rummage through and take what they wanted. This turned out to be a friend of my dad's who owns apartments and the man who lived in one was an active reader and had thousands of books. His family didn't want any of these books. Both my parents are big readers, mainly my mother. A few years ago my dad turned the outside gazebo into a library for her and this is where all of these new books went. ANYWAY.... my parents went and got a good amount, I went with them on my day off and it was pretty picked over (some others have come, too) and I felt a-little overwhelmed by all of these books this man had. He was a Vietnam vet and from what we learned from finding notes he left behind he was actually writing a book of his own and kept several notes on random things. It was interesting learning of all his interests, it felt sort of like a dive into someone we would never meet. Books ranged from all sorts of religious types to conspiracy theories, famous people, health books, art books and a huge amount of comic books. So I got some new ones to enjoy. It felt bittersweet since he had no one to take these after he passed and sort of reminded me I need to someday make a will and figure out who will get my house and belongings when I pass.

Then the next bit of news is the house besides me has been long abandoned and in bad shape. There was a fire back in 2017 and they had to put it out by creating three holes in the roof. Needless to say, the elements got to it and its been slowly rotting away. Some of the family got it and had it demolished and some of the land stripped clear of the beautiful wildlife surrounding it. I was sad and stressed by this. The house needed to go, and that is a good thing since it was a health hazard. But I felt very sad as I saw and heard many trees crashing down and being taken away. Perfectly healthy trees. I thought of the animals and wildlife who lived in and around those trees. This property stretches' all around and beside mine, so I am anxious to see what happens of it.

And lastly I wanted to update about my health. A few days ago on Friday I got a phone call back on some blood work I had taken the morning before. I've been feeling tired now for a long time - maybe a few years - and always thought it was anemia since my mom has it. Well it turns out it is my thyroid. Normal cut off for TSH levels being high cut off at 4.5. Mine is 18.7! Ten years ago when I last had my blood tested it was in the 1% range. The nurse was very worried and luckily I'm going to see my doctor to talk about what should be done next later this week.
After I sort of digested this news, I looked at high levels of TSH hormones and found a list of many symptoms. Many of which I related to. The main ones I feel I have are being tired a-lot, getting cold easily, having my hands go numb, soreness throughout my body with my muscles, heavy bleeding during periods, brain fog, weight gain and sometimes feeling depressed. I had no idea the thyroid works with a good amount of everything in your body, even heart rate.

But anyway, I just thought an update journal would be helpful. Hope everyone is staying well. I will get my life back in control soon I feel.

Comments

[matt_zimmer]

I hope your doctor's appointment goes well and that you are okay, Jess. Good vibes from me.

[a_natural_beauty]

Thank you, that means a-lot. :-) I'll be sending good vibes back your way - just because!

[matt_zimmer]

Good vibes are good.

[jazznevermore]

Sorry to hear you're going through all this, Jess. I hope and pray things get better for you and turn out well in the long run.

[a_natural_beauty]

Thank you, I greatly appreciate that! :-) I'm sure they will. I hope things get better for you, too.

[sarah_skye]

Hi Jess,
Following on from reading a PM you sent me on CF I came over here to read your journal entry which explains in detail the things you mentioned briefly in the message. I don't know much about thyroid conditions but I can see why you say it makes you feel drained so I hope they can sort that out for you soon!
The books sound amazing and when you mentioned comic books too I suddenly felt wide awake!XD As for the guy himself, his life sounds very interesting and makes me wonder if he had written enough for you to take over what he was compiling but I guess if he stopped to early on then it's possibly not enough for a whole book.

But anyway, take it easy and make sure you do what makes you happy too!

[a_natural_beauty]

Thank you, it was nice chatting with you more last night. I appreciate you being such a good friend. :-)

Yes, they are. My mom has the notes. From the sounds of it, it sounded like a children's book... I think she said it was something along the lines of "the princess and the pizza".... it also sounded like a comedy.

Thank you! I have been, this week has slowed down so much for me and it's been refreshing to say the least.

[adafrog]

Hope the property owners do something reasonable.
Good luck with the doctor appt.

[a_natural_beauty]

Thank you very much, I appreciate that. :)

Yes, it's a-lot of wooded area. I hope it stays the same.