I am at a loss of words, Jason. I am sorry to all of hear that. :(

It's terrible how people view others biased on how their appearance is. I feel like some of the nicest people I have ever met have been people who others just walk by and don't give a chance to. The world is full of narrow minded people.

On the subject of that, I dated a black man for a-little over two years and some of the stories of how the world treated him and viewed him broke my heart. He wasn't even completely open about it until after we broke up, I think because maybe he didn't want to tell me such sad things while we were a couple.

I'm truly sorry you are going through so much. If you ever need anyone to talk to, know I am here. :(
I hope some relief is on your way.